D E V O T I O N S ? ? ?

When we are ready to give our devotion to someone that we love, unfortunately the devotion would turn up side down. Our world is being crippled, being crumpled as if it doesn't gives any benefit at all to us. But on the bright side, people would never realized the beauty of the devotions itself. Conquered by their own ego, that’s the reason why guys especially hard to hold their commitment to someone that he love the most. At the end, regret, frustration gloom's their life for entire of it.

As for me, i will give my all just to have that man here in my arms. I will hold him tightly so he wont felt any pains that probably hurt him now nor in the future. I will give him ALL my love if he’s ready to let the past be gone.

Unfortunately, just because of that pretty lady of your heart, makes me miserable. Because i can’t hold to the fragile of your heart when you need someone to wipe your tears. Can’t you see that i’m also HURTING when you cried? Don’t you know that i’d rather be your DOLL as long as we’re keep in touch? Don’t you aware of that? Don’t you have at least A heart for me? Don’t you want at least save it for me although it is HARD to be reality? Don’t you want to give it a TRY???!!!
I still remember our first and was the ONLY conversation which is years ago. Don’t you realize that i kept on hanging with that memory of us? I still HOPING that we meet each other soon? Don’t you know that actually my HOPE for you higher than before? The more you rejects on me, the more i'm into you?!

You can have your own way as long as i have you. I can bear with it. I do anything for you because i can’t stand away from knowing nothing about you. Your tears is my pain. Your laughter is my medicine. Your problems is my assignments. Why so? Because seeing you in pain gives me pain in the heart. Seeing you laugh is the best medicine to cure the pain. Your problems is my assignments is because it should be settled sooner or later.

Doesn't you know that every vessels in my body is written your name on it? Even the blood that always whisper me your name.

 Love is crazy. I can’t take it anymore!I have to fight for it? For how many years i have to wasted my time waiting for you to came and embrace me into your life? For how many years do i have to calm my heart not to push you about this useless feeling? Your silence giving me useless moment.

For how long do I have to wait for your approval? How many years do I have to questioning myself when I’m going to move on? Find someone who is worth to have my love, my loyalty, my worship, my devotion, my All.

Guys, come back and forth for my love, but me? Still waiting like a bunch of morons foolish themselves. They were begging to have my love. It’s neither just one nor two guys, a lot of them. Yet, I have to push them away only for my loves towards you that never fade away till Allah take my breath away. The feeling is getting stronger every second, every minute, every hours, days, weeks, months, years, even decade. I prayed for Allah giving me a sign is it you that were for me. Is it my name is written in the Loh Mahfuz besides your name.

When I was not myself you were there! When I was down to earth you were there! When I need love, u gave it to me although u didn't realize it! When I cried, you shed my tears! When I’m gloomy, u shines my day with your humors! You gave me strength to move on when I choose to give up! You took care of me when someone making fun of me! You were concern about me, when no one concern about what happen to me! Let me love you, and I will love you without any conditions Let me love you and your troubles, your up’s and down’s. Let me took care of you when people give you a hard time.

Let me love you, took care of you, cook for you, being your truly enemy, being your sincerely best friend, be your sincerely wife and a mother to your kids. 

But I’d know that neither of my words going to be a reality. J

I want you to know that this is not any threaten letter for you to accept my devotions. It’s just a paper that I used to express the voice of my little heart.
I just want people aware that love is not a simple thing that we can deal in life without knowing the preciousness of love. <3 o:p="">

A word

I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death. 
Leonardo da Vinci 

SAILANG??? or BEING FUNNY???

in life we never aspect someone that we close to, someone that we trust so much suddenly stab behind ur back!!!

WHAT EXACTLY UR PROBLEM???!!!

IF U HAVE SOMETHING THAT UR NOT SATISFIED WITH ME, WON'T U JUST CONFRONT WITH ME??!! INSTEAD OF MOCKING ME AS IF I DUN HAVE MY DIGNITY!!!

for 3 years aku makan hati dgn kau! for 3 years aku sabar dgn kerenah kau! for 3 years also aku menyimpan segala rahsia kau! tp knp kau xblh nak simpan rahsia aku?? dhlh pecah amanah, pastu blh plak canang kat org benda yg aku simpan dlm perut! kau xpnh fikirkan org lain kan?? asal periuk kau tjaga then ko xde hal! kalau aku jahat, aku blh jer canang citer kau dlm aspek bende lain. tp aku diamkan.. aku jg maruah kau..

KAU G CITER DEKAT KENGKAWAN KAU PSL AKU BLH??!! TP BILE AKU CITER PSL KAU KAT KAWAN AKU MENGANJING SAKAN!!

aku dan kau dh besar! aku harap kau sedar apa yg kau buat! org suruh aku balas balik apa yg kau buat.. aku malas!! sbb I NOE UR CAPABILITY!! n aku bukan mcm kau.. bg aku biarlah kau nak mengata apa sekalipun.. biarlah juga TUHAN yang balas untuk aku.. aku penat! drama kau menyakitkan hati! kau mengutuk org lain dekat aku... dekat org yg kau kutuk 2 plak, kau kutuk psl aku.. bila nak hbs drama kau??? laku ke??

MAAFKAN KEKHILAFAN AKU SEKIRANYA AKU PERNAH BBUAT SALAH KE ATAS DIRI KAU! AKU DH MEMAAFKAN KAU KERANA, PUNCANYA DARI KESILAPAN AKU SENDIRI YG BODOH! TP UNTUK AKU MENERIMA KAU SEMULA SBG KAWAN AKU, ADALAH SANGAT MUSTAHIL!!! MAAF SEKALI LAGI...


nukilan ini ditullis pada jam 0403 (waktu tempatan) 01.01.2013 (TAHUN BARU)

bg aku xde bezanya tahun baru n tahun lepas! sbb kejadian yg berlaku masih sama!!

melodramatik!

like is always full with DRAMA! nevertheless WE are the ACTOR & ACTRESSES...

miserable, being fooled, being loved, being stabbed, be happy, be gojes all the time..be brave, BE BEAUTIFUL...

LOVE or LUST

MAYA...

ssh kalau kita suka pd org yg kita xpnh jumpa..hanya MAYA yg mhubungkan..lalu kita setia pdnya tanpa sangsi pun.. :) alhamdulillah... setakat ini aku mampu lagi meneruskannya..tp sampai bila?? it's been almost 3 years. mampu kah aku? 

many things did happen.. but still die terima aku. many things yg aku stdy dr die...

• GUYS ske pmpn yg SABAR dgn die :)
• GUYS ske pmpn yg blh buat die SENYUM, sdgkan dgn pmpn lain die xley pon nak senyum mcm kita buat die..
• LELAKI mmg xske pmpn PUSH die untuk turutkan permintaan pmpn 2...
• LELAKI xske pmpn 2 xley jd diri sendiri.. mksdnye dpn LELAKI kemain suci.. blakang DURJANA! 
• When a guy feel comfortable dgn kita, dia xkn lari dr kita... 
• LELAKI ske kita manjakan dorg.. tp bukan selalu..
• GUYS ske pmpn yg salu btanyakan psl kesihatan die, kerja die instead of bckp psl feeling-ing, blh buat LELAKI stressed!!
• LELAKI ske pmpn MATURED! sbb bg die blh BDIKARI! 

aku rasa jelah kan lelaki ske bde2 mcm 2..heheh..pmerhatian kdg2 menipu.. :P

sume perkara yg aku senarai 2 sume aku alami ms aku knl ngan dia. dia dkt je..DAMANSARA je..

tp die lelaki yg mementingkan kerjaya! sbb nak atur kehidupannya yg dulu pnh kucar kacir.. after 

settle sume bde br die blh ckp psl GF n MARRIED n STUFF... till when my DEAR?? 

someone plak PURPOSED me already..hahaha.. kelakar! if dlm umur 40+ aku xde HUSBAND, dia 

akn terus msk MINANG aku! xnk!!! aku nak org lain! hahahah.. blh x?? :P 

well to be frank, aku ALMOST dpt die, but then aku g dgr ckp org, so aku push die,, jdnye die 

mdiamkan diri. which is aku yg sakit, merana mcm gampang! aku pernah DOA gak is it AKU 

TULANG RUSUK KIRI DIA??? hari2 aku DOA n hari2 jgk perasaan ini makin STRONGER!!

seringkali aku rs die mcm menyeru2 nama aku.. SCARY DOWH!! tp aku ske.. lps 2 aku ngs! 

BODOH X??? :P aku peduli hape.. WELL semua bde ada jwpn nya.. 

SBB KITA SAYANG ORG 2, KITA SANGGUP BUAT APE JE TOK ORG 2.. LANTAK ORG NK CKP PE!! :))

KAWAN is the only way 4 me untuk rapat ngan dia balik.. now! family dia family aku, & 

sebaliknya.. apa2 yg menggembirakan dia aku akn menjadi org yg PERTAMA yg dia akn gtau..

YA Allah! Alhamdulillah.. tp mampukah aku btahan untuk memilikinya? hanya KAU yg TAHU.. :)

Miley Cyrus - Stay (Lyrics)

i love this song!! enough said! :)

B I N T A N G berkelip lagi??

....sepurnama berlalu dengan pantas. sedang aku ingin melupakan purnama-purnama yang menyakitkan hati, aku ditemani dengan satu bintang yang senantiasa melayani kerenah aku dengan penuh kesabaran. without any objections, without any hesitations. knowing him is like knowing his whole life.

... in the same time, purnama yan ingin aku lupakan MUNCUL kembali! why?? kenapa muncul di kala aku bsedia mencari bintang lain? or its jz a sign??? untuk aku lupakan lelaki itu dan fokus dengan kau?? huheee..well kedatangan die mmg membantu aku. disaat aku memerlukan seseorang untuk mengadu, instead of bintang malap yg owest bz, purnama yg menjengah sanubari. wlpn jauh merentasi laut china selatan, he's there 4 me yg kbtln dpt berita abh masuk hospital miri. anak mana yang tidak sedih dan takut kalau orang yang die sayang masuk hospital? he console me, saying that i should pray that my father is okay. harus aku katakan disini yang aku tsentuh sbb die ckp mcm 2.

Now that my father is okay, so okay lah!but then datang plak mslh lain. BINTANG yang aku ingt akn menyinari rupanya MALAP mainan duniawi.perghh!! memainkan perasaan aku n BFF aku at the same time. bapak kasanova lah kau!! nak cerita psl mamat MALAP nie panjang sangat..nty aku citer balik cz ending nye xnampak lg..so tgu keluaran akn dtg!!hahahahhaha